“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30)
Wow. What a powerful verse, needed today more than ever. For HE is gentle and HUMBLE in heart. Do you ever have a case of the Mondays? Today was that day for me. After a day of letting the world get the best of me and my emotions, I was thankful to come home to my resting place and spend some quiet time in the word in reflection. I sat down with my copy of Jodi Detrick’s The Jesus-Hearted Woman and knew exactly what section I needed to dive into…
Like many of us, this is something I can struggle with. In fact, I think you’d be hard pressed to find someone who hasn’t. I guess the best way to describe my feelings about today are disappointment. We are called to have a spirit of peace and graciousness, a spirit of humility. With thoughts of envy and frustration swirling in my head, I realized that I was doing the exact thing I had just been criticizing, putting myself and my needs before others. In Matthew 23 verse 28, Jesus says, “In the same way, on the outside you appear to people as righteous but on the inside you are full of hypocrisy and wickedness.” There it is. That instant moment when you feel your heart clench because you know you have been convicted. Now, hypocrisy and wickedness can mean different things, big or small, but really it is all the same…an unjust thought, a disgrace.
With recognition of my shortcomings, I flipped over to Proverbs 29, where the word says, “An angry person stirs up conflict, and a hot-tempered person commits many sins. Pride brings a person low, but the lowly in spirit gain honor.” (Proverbs 29:22-23) Well, that about sums it up. By filling our hearts and minds with anger, aggression or self-gain, we perpetuate a cycle of hurt, there is no win. I love that this says “…the lowly in spirit gain honor.” By lowering ourselves, we are gaining immense treasure. Yes it is hard, yes it embarrassing…but it is NECESSARY. It is not about demeaning yourself or settling for inferiority, we are never called to be timid or sell ourselves short, but rather recognize that we are not perfect, we are not without sin. Sin is sin, a heart that lacks humility is still a sin. I need to remind myself of this daily.
Now where do we go from here? Recognition is key. Knowing what is your “trigger” behavior or situation. What situations do you surround yourself with that take away your humility? Find an action plan. How do you hold back from pulling the trigger? It doesn’t have to be a major, life-changing revelation, it can be a step by step process. After all, even if you just move forward an inch, it is an inch further than you were this morning. For me, I’ve made the decision to spend the month of November diving deeper into “humility”. Where can I grow? This is where I ask you friends, keep me accountable! We are called to walk this journey together. As we’re told in Proverbs 27:17, “As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.”
Tomorrow is a new day, and for that, I am truly THANKFUL! I know that perfection is a fictitious idea, so for now, I will find contentment in knowing that the inch brings growth.